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On The Outside, Looking In

Is it just me, but does anybody else feel like their entire life is like watching a movie? You are not in the movie, but you are in the audience viewing it.

I always feel like I’m on the periphery, like I’m not actually doing anything, and that I’m just watching these people, actors if you will, go about their plot lines.

It’s like all these things are happening to other people and nothing is happening to me. It’s like I’m stagnant or like I’m not actually real. I have no impact, not footprint. It’s like I’m a ghost.

I suppose part of this is that I would much rather watch other people. When you really observe what others are doing it is in fact like watching a movie, but any type of genre because you do not know if you will be horrified, excited, shocked or disgusted.

Even people who are not particularly  interesting to engage with, still have some sort of story arc. There is always something to watch.

I don’t feel like I do. I am at severe plateau. Do I write a second act? Everybody love a comeback story. Or do I continue to be a viewer?

Who needs to be in the center of attention? The life of an audience member brings anonymity and serenity, which sounds like paradise to me.

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