I knew before I signed up for it that I would most likely not like working in a corporate environment. When I drove in for my first interview I thought gross and by the time I left I thought there was no way I could ever work at such a place. Well, I drank from the corporate well and here I am in the land of Corporate America. I suppose I should be happy that I am at a stable company with growth potential, but I find myself rather torn. Quite frankly, I detest the corporate culture mentality where groupthink is rewarded and individual ideas are frowned upon. However, I still need to make a living. This has brought me to the juncture of where do I go?
I find that being in this position is not only soul crushing, but makes me more miserable than normal. It is draining to drudge through the every day minutia of what seems to be like a communist regime. I know it sounds odd to say a pillar of capitalism invokes communist ideas, but it does. It is communal space, everybody works together, they feed you company “language” that needs to be regurgitated and you need to fall in line with company policy, initiatives and culture.
Perhaps it is my lineage of coming from a truly Communist regime, but all of this makes me want to rebel. I like free thought and discourse. I don’t want to fall in line just to be able to get a shot at a bigger cube or gasp, an actual office. These are not motivators for the likes of me.
I suppose now is the time to chose if I stay in this world of homogeny or break free.